I guess it's high time the cat is let out of the bag. My audio has already been banned, and too many people are asking what happened. It's been so long, this pressure so hard. For the past 2 and a half years the pain and anxiety became a big burden on my shoulders i'm all but too happy to finally let go.
There is this deep, deep sense of relief as I write this letter to you. Equally, there is a a terrible regret. It's time I just came out with it, no more lies, no more deceit. If there is any merit to that stupid saying, this should in theory set me free.
Over the years i've been fed midis and recently high quality mp3's from a friend studying under the local composer John Shore as well as other free midis I could find over the internet and random packs. I have ripped those midis and simply plastered them up as my own. Cutting up snippets and butchering many of them for the loops.
I have never taken money from the "jobs" I had, scared, terrified that this day would come. I'm sick to the stomach, but at last, this day has come.
The material from my alt accounts, MaestroSorrow and MaestroSegments, those are real (for the most part). I just wanted so badly to become one of the greats. I can't give excuses, I wanted to be able to make something worthwhile, but all I could do was worthless.
For so long... why I was so hungry to compose but so bad at the craft regardless of how hard I worked and studied, it tore at me until I decided to try and see what it was like, if only for a little while, to be decent. This is why I would often write in my responses "Anybody can do what I do" because sad truth is, they can.
For this I am truly, truly sorry. I've lied to everybody for years now. I've built friends and I would not blame any of them if they chose to shun me or ignore me. Many of you have already. I don't blame you.
I'm truly sorry to John Shore, the great composer of whom a lot of this material is taken from. Please do. not let my actions ruin the trust between your students who unknowingly gave me their study material you provided them, they were not aware I was going to use them this way.
Another big apology goes to Mandi, aka, LadyArsenic, whom for those years believed in me, and encouraged me where I have told her only lies. I hope, I pray you will find somebody to work with, that is worth your time and your very self.
I'm sorry to all my fans who likewise stuck around to listen to these tracks, enjoying them, using them, commenting on them. This is one of the biggest slaps an artist can give to his loyal fans.
I'm sorry. Just, so sorry.
Also April Fools!
Yuen-Chen
in my country you would be hung by your balls
MaestroRage
probably would too!